This is a very personal post. It’s October, the extremely pink Breast Cancer Awareness month.
Yesterday morning I was filled with fear and dread. Tears were so close to the surface. I was very quiet. My four-year appointment with my oncologist was yesterday afternoon. I’ve done this before….there is something so scary about this appointment. I just want it over. I just want my doctor to say I’m OK and closer to that five year mark. I wonder how I have the nerve to walk into that office…I just want to leave. Why do all the nurses greet you with “how are you”?
Fast forward an hour and I am a different person! Everything is OK! I’m laughing and hugging the nurses and social worker! I am fine!
There have been three overwhelming days of gratitude for me this summer. When the flag flew, I found myself taking a moment to just look at it and be thankful for the fabulous summer of sewing and friendship. When I finished filming my class, I took a moment of quiet to just look around the room and remember how grateful I was for the experience and the fun people I worked with. And yesterday, I was so very grateful for all of the wonderful health care people that have guided me through a scary pink journey. I walked out the door and took another moment to be thankful……
And then I went to Rhebs candy store across the street and bought Truffles!